Am I being simulated by their love affair?

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Tomatsu Yuka pursed her lips, lowered her eyes slightly, and savored the sweet and cool taste in her mouth—noticing the boy's gaze, a smile appeared on her dignified face as she extended her bright red tongue.

"Is this what Jun-kun wants to see?"

Jun Matsue glanced at the girl's wet little tongue, which even deftly stirred the melting ice cream in her mouth.

"Stop fooling around..." He was just admiring Tomatsu's pure and beautiful appearance.

Tomatsu Yuka smiled mischievously, covering her lips and deliberately making the action of swallowing the ice cream appear particularly forceful—as if she were struggling to swallow something else.

The boy reluctantly raised his hand and fed her a few more spoonfuls of ice cream. Finally, he scraped off the last bit of melted ice cream from the bowl and ate it himself.

"Speaking of which, Jun-kun had lunch at his senior's house yesterday, right?"

Matsueda Jun raised his eyes. The girl opposite him had a nonchalant expression, as if she had just thought of this.

"Hmm." He tried to keep his tone as light as possible.

"Lunch was cream stew, as for the taste... I don't quite remember, because I was talking to my senior about installing an electronic doorbell and how to deal with all kinds of people who come to harass me."

"I see." Tomatsu Yuka picked up a tissue and wiped her lips. "You left after lunch?"

"Okay." The boy stood up, took her hand, and walked to the counter to pay.

"Because I went there after class at noon, it was already past 1 p.m. when I got there, and I got home before 3 p.m."

“Oh…” The girl watched him pay, glanced at the bill, and then took out her phone to transfer her share.

"If you're worried, you can ask Mochizuki," Jun Matsue said, putting away his wallet.

"I was just asking casually~" Tomatsu Yuka waved her hand with a smile, then took the boy's arm and walked towards the store door.

"Let's go, it's time to go home."

Hand in hand, they strolled through the streets where the wind rustled through the air. The deeper they ventured into the neighborhood, the more tranquil and harmonious the environment became. As they entered the upscale apartment building by the Zenpukuji River, the warm sunlight streaming across the water created a cozy and inviting scene.

The first thing Tomatsu Yuka did when she got home was to turn on the heater. The girl took off her coat, revealing her shoulders covered by a sweater, and then, under the boy's gaze, bent over to transform her long stockings into pantyhose. As she straightened up, she lifted her skirt, revealing the alluring curve between her hips and buttocks.

"Yuka seems to be in a hurry today," Matsueda Jun remarked, looking at her pure yet alluring attire.

"It's almost time." The girl turned around, rolled her eyes, and led him into the bedroom.

She closed the door, turned on the lights, drew the curtains, and gently pushed the boy to the edge of the bed before sitting in his lap.

The most stress-relieving thing is the skin-to-skin contact between lovers. The girl raised her hands, which were wrapped around her waist, and placed one on her thigh and the other on her shoulder, covering the curve of her chest.

"Why does Tsun-kun seem a little unmotivated?" She turned around, twisting her waist and rubbing against him.

"Is it because we just finished lunch? Or is the room a bit cold?"

Tomatsu Yuka pouted slightly, "Was she drained dry by Mochizuki Haruka?"

“How could that be?” Jun Matsue smiled and then put his hands back on her waist.

"Youhua——"

Before he could finish speaking, the girl stood up.

"Is it a problem with the clothes?" Tomatsu Yuka twirled around, making her skirt flutter.

"It feels too homey?"

She walked to the side, opened the wardrobe, and took out a halter-neck sweater paired with garter stockings, and a simple, thin vest that resembled a bib and was paired with bunny ear hair accessories.

"Which of these two sets do you prefer, Chun-jun?"

Looking at the girl in front of him, whom he could choose to "package" at will, Jun Matsue felt not desire, but rather a silent pity.

The more this was the case, the more he could understand Tomatsu's insecurity.

"Yuka." He reached out and pulled Tomatsu Yuka into his arms.

"I'd like to talk to you first."

"...Hmm?" The girl who sat down blinked in surprise. "Shall we chat now?"

"Although I have no objection, it feels unusual for Tsun-kun to be so clueless about romance."

As she spoke, she reached her hands behind her buttocks, but the boy stopped her again.

"Yuhua, I want to have a serious talk."

"..." Tomatsu Yuka then stopped what she was doing.

She turned around and sat on the boy's lap, embracing him and holding his arms.

"What would you like to talk about, Jun-kun?"

Amidst the whirring of the central air conditioning's warm air, Jun Matsue gazed into the girl's eyes.

I sense you haven't been very happy lately.

"Unhappy?" Tomatsu Yuka tilted her head.

"No, I'm happy as long as I'm with Tsun-kun."

"I'm talking about when I'm not around." The boy pinched her nose.

"Or rather, it's when you're worried about me not being around."

The girl's eyelashes trembled, and the thoughts hanging on them swayed with them.

"You've been a bit anxious lately, or rather, uneasy?" The boy nuzzled her cheek. "When did it start?"

"As I said before, just tell me if you have anything on your mind, there's no need to worry about anything."

"..." Tomatsu Yuka lowered her head and pressed her cheek against his chest.

"when……"

"After the cultural festival?" she seemed to be asking herself.

"After shifting my attention away from Mochizuki Haruka, I feel like I can't let go of my worries."

She pressed herself against the boy's chest, trying to relax.

"After accepting Mochizuki Haruka, Imokawa Natsumi jumped out again, as did Yamami Maki—senpai told me that she was the one who encouraged you to make the choice of not letting go."

"A while ago, Mochizuki told me that you wrote a song for Yosei Kurusu—to be honest, I'm a little envious..."

Tomatsu Yuka smiled as she felt the boy hug her tighter.

"So of course I'm uneasy. After all, accepting Mochizuki Haruka won't really affect my relationship with Tsunuk that much—we've been fighting over you all along."

"But what if other people join us? How will my time with Jun-kun change?"

“But I don’t think it’s a big deal.” The girl looked up. “That’s why I didn’t tell Jun-kun.”

"After all, it was I who chose to indulge Tsun-kun and to walk this path with you, so of course I should be mentally prepared."

"Anyway, all these worries and anxieties will disappear if I just spend more time with Tsunku and get loved by him a few more times~"

She said this by twisting her thigh, intending to get back to today's main topic.

However, the boy had no intention of ending the conversation there.

“No, that’s not it.” Jun Matsueda pressed down on the girl’s thigh. “Tomoka is right. It’s normal to have negative emotions.”

"Actually, me too. I've been afraid lately that I won't be able to control myself and that my sincerity will turn into pure greed, which will get out of control."

"Tsun-kun is also uneasy?" Tomatsu Tomoka blinked in surprise.

"Yes, so it's normal for one's mindset to change, but using happiness to numb oneself is not the right solution."

"Yuka thinks that if she does it with me a few more times, everything will be fine, and she can be happy without any problems..."

Jun Matsue looked at the alluring clothes the girl had placed on either side of her.

"But the moments when pleasure takes over your mind are ultimately only a minority. Once it fades, you'll find that the problems are still there."

"You'll still worry that your happiness will be taken away by Kurusu and the others, and you'll still feel anxious and uneasy."

"Even if we do less one day, you might wonder if I'm getting tired of you..."

"Wasn't it too much fun? Wasn't it too alluring? Wasn't it too uninhibited? Wasn't it too submissive in bed?"

"..." Tomatsu Yuka kept her head down and didn't say anything.

What Chunjun was saying was exactly the state of mind she was experiencing today.

“Of course not for any of those reasons,” the boy said softly.

Ultimately, it's my fault.

The girl raised her head, wanting to speak, but Jun Matsue pressed his lips against hers.

"It's because I didn't give you enough security, making you afraid of being abandoned by me. It's because I didn't meet your desire for companionship, which is why you feel inadequate."

“You can’t say that,” Tomatsu Yuka interrupted him.

“I can become greedy just like Tsunkun. You can’t keep satisfying me all the time.”

"I promised you first that I wouldn't care about these things."

After all, she was someone who had made mistakes... the girl thought to herself.

Just as Tsunku was afraid of being controlled by greed, she was also afraid that the ruthless Tomatsu Tomoka from back then would resurface in her mind.

This is the only thing that must be avoided.

"I don't care." Jun Matsue pushed against the girl's shoulder.

"Because I am already happy, if Yuka is not happy, then it is my fault."

"..." Tomatsu Yuka wrinkled her nose, and suddenly felt her eyes getting hot.

This is why, even though she couldn't have Tsunkun all to herself, the girl still firmly chose to be with him.

"Then what should Chunjun do?" Her voice was somewhat hoarse.

"I'll listen to you."

Jun Matsue cupped the girl's cheeks.

"Tell me everything first, including Yuka's unease and grievances, and her thoughts about us."

"Open communication is the most important thing between couples. You should speak up first, and then I'll think of a solution."

"..." Tomatsu Yuka silently rubbed against the boy's warm palm.

Jun-kun's palm wasn't actually very comfortable to hold.

He started working from a young age, and after becoming independent, he continued to take care of household chores and work part-time. He didn't take care of his skin much—his skin was just a little rough, thanks to the vigorous energy of his body during puberty.

Even so, the girl still felt extremely at ease. She closed her eyes and thought about it carefully.

"Tsun-kun won't be satisfied with just me and Mochizuki, right?"

“…Yes, I’m sorry,” Jun Matsueda admitted softly.

Since we have already given up on rational restraint, there is even less need for compromise.

After being entangled with Miss Idol for so long, and even being roommates for almost three years, the option of letting go had long since disappeared from his mind.

"Tsun-kun, there's no need to apologize," Tomatsu Tomoka said with a gentle smile.

"Looking at it now, it seems that Mochizuki and I really can't satisfy you~"

The boy looked somewhat embarrassed, while the girl's eyes held a mischievous smile.

"Hmm... I've thought about it carefully, and the reason I'm feeling uneasy right now is because I haven't spent enough time with Tsun-kun."

She stretched out her finger and drew circles on the boy's chest through his shirt.

"The situation that I discussed with Mochizuki Haruka back then still allowed her to gain too much advantage."

"Although Sundays are entirely mine, there's still too little free time at school, unlike Mochizuki, who can do whatever she wants with you after we get home."

“This situation is difficult to change at the moment.” Jun Matsue stroked the black hair on her back.

"After all, you'll be going home too, and you can't live next door to me like she does—actually, things will get much better after graduation."

"Yes, I know." The girl's soft breath brushed against his neck.

"I'm a little dissatisfied with having only one Sunday right now, but this situation will soon be over."

“When we get to university, Mochizuki won’t be in the same school as us, so I’ll naturally have more time. University schedules are also more flexible, so it won’t matter if Tsunku and I skip classes together.”

"...You haven't even been accepted into the University of Tokyo yet, and you're already thinking about skipping classes?" the boy asked helplessly.