Am I being simulated by their love affair?

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"...Why is Songzhi awake so early?" The girl rubbed her eyes. "Wouldn't it be better to sleep a little longer?"

Jun Matsue smiled. "Once I'm awake, I'm not sleepy at all."

Although he didn't get much sleep, he felt refreshed, perhaps because he had released most of his pent-up desires last night.

"I'm going to sleep a little longer, I feel so tired."

Mochizuki Haruka closed her eyes again, and rubbed her head against the boy's chin.

"It's all your fault for being so rough last night. I have no strength left in my body now."

"Wake me up when you get to school..."

Today is Saturday, and they still have to go to school for half a day. Jun Matsue turned his head and glanced at the tightly drawn curtains. The blurry light and shadow flowed even more rapidly, and the dense sound of rain enveloped them.

“I’ll ask for leave for you.” He picked up the girl’s phone. “You definitely need to rest today, and with such heavy rain, the school will probably notify everyone that classes are suspended.”

"...What about the pine branches?"

Mochizuki Haruka regained some of her senses. She propped herself up slightly, revealing her fair shoulders and collarbone, and stared at the boy's face illuminated by the phone screen.

Jun Matsue paused for a moment, "If the school doesn't notify me, I'll go and take a look first."

"There's no food left in the fridge. I'll be going out eventually anyway, so I'll just leave early."

“My body isn’t that weak.” The girl pouted slightly, gazing into the boy’s calm eyes.

"Do you want to see Tomatsu Yuka?" she suddenly asked.

The boy nodded. "I need to break up with her."

If he had some hesitation before, then after last night, Jun Matsue had no reason to hesitate anymore.

Mochizuki Haruka wasn't surprised, but there wasn't much joy on her face either. The girl's bare shoulders shrank back under the covers.

"Whatever, whether you break up or not is irrelevant to me."

Now it was Matsueda Jun's turn to be surprised. He was ready to date Mochizuki, but the girl who had urged him to break up with her was now saying she didn't care.

"……What's the meaning?"

"It means exactly what it says." Mochizuki Haruka pouted. "Whether you break up or not is up to you, because I don't plan to be your girlfriend right now."

The ambiguous and blurry light suddenly disappeared from the room, and Matsueda Jun finally woke up completely from the erotic reverie of the previous night. He frowned, and his gaze towards the girl became more scrutinizing.

"I don't mean a one-night stand!" The boy's gaze made the girl a little flustered, and she quickly explained.

She pressed herself closer to the boy's body, "Hey, Pine, I have a question for you."

"If I were to date you now, could you guarantee you wouldn't break up with me?"

Jun Matsue paused, and the image of Maki Yami's sorrowful smile flashed through his mind.

...But Wangyue is different from her senior, he told himself.

So the boy quickly spoke up, "I think it's up to you to decide."

"Really?" The joy in Mochizuki Haruka's eyes wasn't particularly intense.

"If Tomatsu Yuka says to you, just like I did back then, 'You're all I have left,' can you just leave her behind?"

The room was filled with the low, chaotic sound of rain.

"If Yosei Kurusu announces on stage that she has someone she likes, would you let her take all the abuse from the fans alone?"

The girl's unwavering determination made it even harder for Jun Matsueda to speak.

“Matsue, you like me, but there are other people in your heart.” Mochizuki Haruka hugged his arm tighter. “Before I’m sure you like me, of course I can be indifferent.”

People are always like this; once they get something, they want more. The young girl wasn't some detached philosopher, but of course, she was no exception.

"But if I were in a relationship with you, I would definitely be even more concerned and insecure—"

"If you become closer to them, will your feelings for me diminish? Will Tomatsu Tomohana or Kurusu Yosei take my place one day?"

Matsueda Jun's silence at this moment was precisely the reason why Mochizuki Haruka rejected him; it proved that the girl's worries were not unfounded.

"So unless Songzhi can guarantee that he won't break up with me, I won't date you."

Despite saying this, Mochizuki Haruka nestled against the boy's chest with deep affection.

She tilted her head back and met Jun Matsue's frozen gaze.

"I don't want to be your next ex-girlfriend."

Chapter 577 Unwavering

The rain continued to fall outside the window, and Jun Matsue felt the girl's delicate body in his arms getting hot.

It wasn't the heat of passion, but a burning, stinging heat—faced with Wangyue's question, he could only remain speechless.

The boy remained silent for a while, and Mochizuki Haruka didn't speak again either. The girl simply nestled quietly in his arms, looking at the love marks she had left on his strong body.

"So what is our relationship now?"

Jun Matsuoka had a strange feeling when he said this.

"—What's the relationship?" The girl in his arms tilted her head back and licked his chest with her bright red tongue.

"What kind of relationship does Songzhi think they have? Lovers? Sexual partners? Or just ordinary friends since they haven't reached the level of lovers?"

Recalling the boy's previous categorization of interpersonal relationships, Mochizuki Haruka chuckled.

"I don't care what kind of relationship we have!"

As she spoke, she hugged Matsueda Jun tightly from behind.

"Anyway, I'll be by your side, won't I?"

"We've already done it all, so our relationship is definitely closer than with Tomatsu's fake girlfriend."

"..." Matsueda Jun's feelings were somewhat complicated, "But this kind of relationship is not good."

"What do you mean by pine branches?" The girl looked up warily. "Are you still planning to distance yourself from me?"

The boy shook his head. It wasn't that he disliked Mochizuki, and besides, the two of them had done it countless times last night. Matsueda Jun had no intention of being an irresponsible man.

Mochizuki Haruka breathed a sigh of relief, then looked at him with a somewhat mournful expression.

Do you think I'm really happy to have chosen this kind of relationship?

"Have I been bothering you lately? Of course I know that..."

The girl buried her head in Jun Matsueda's chest, her words becoming particularly indistinct amidst the clear sound of rain.

"Songzhi, I don't like this version of myself."

“I can spend an entire evening figuring out how to make your favorite lemon black tea, but I don’t want to spend an hour worrying and agonizing over what you’ve been doing with them outside.”

"So give me more security, like me a little more, Pine Branch."

Mochizuki Haruka raised her head and began to kiss the boy's neck.

"I don't want to worry about anything except the fact that you like me."

"Tomatsu Yuka wants to be your girlfriend, so let her worry about it."

And that persistent ghost, Yosuke Kurusu, let Tomatsu Yuka deal with him too—since they're so keen on the girlfriend position, let them fight tooth and nail for it.

Mochizuki Haruka's legs wrapped around Matsueda Jun's body.

"All I have to do is enjoy myself."

“…” Looking at the girl wriggling in his arms, Jun Matsue sighed.

"I see."

He gently nudged the girl, "Your body is definitely not fully recovered yet, so don't tease me here."

Mochizuki Haruka reluctantly let go of his hand. This time, she didn't deny it, because when she stretched her legs around the boy, she did feel a stinging pain in her lower body—only then did the girl remember that she was still a weak and helpless person.

Jun Matsue glanced at the time on his phone; it was already past seven. He hugged the girl beside him and then got out of bed.

"The school hasn't sent a notice yet, but I've already asked for leave for you."

"I still have to go out. I'll go to the supermarket on my way back. What do you want to eat for lunch?"

Mochizuki Haruka rolled over in bed, her movements languid. She rolled up the blanket, closed her eyes contentedly, and said, "Anything made of pine branches will do."

"Then I'll buy more vegetables, it's going to rain for several days."

Pushing open the bedroom door, Jun Matsue suddenly remembered something and turned around.

"Do I need to buy you more medicine?"

Last night, he was led by the girl before he even entered the house, followed by a deep kiss that tasted like a cocktail. He even forgot about using protection.

"What medicine?" Mochizuki Haruka, lying on the bed, opened her eyes. "I'm in my safe period, I don't need to take any medicine!"

The girl's tone was even somewhat proud. Matsueda Jun turned around helplessly and said, "If you're tired, take a good rest. I'll be back soon."

A sweet "meow" drifted from behind him. The boy changed into his school uniform and went into the bathroom to wash up, carefully controlling the sound.

Although Mochizuki's sleep quality has always been good, today's situation is special, and he doesn't want to disturb the tired girl's rest.

At 7:23 a.m., Jun Matsue pushed open the apartment door with an umbrella. The torrential rain outside the corridor spread out like a banner, and the muffled sound of the rain became incredibly clear in his ears.

He glanced back at the quiet bedroom, then gently closed the door and stepped into the rain-shrouded city.

Unable to ride his bike today, the boy carefully avoided the puddles on the road and walked slowly towards school. Rainwater streamed down the eaves of his umbrella, forming thin streaks in front of him.

I never expected it to turn out like this... Jun Matsue recalled what the girl had said in the bedroom.

Once again, he inevitably thought of Yamami Maki, who had pleaded with him with tears in her eyes.

The relationship that he had rejected outright in front of his senior back then now seemed to have fallen on him in an unexpected way, which Matsueda Jun found somewhat ironic.

The continuous rain blurred the traffic lights at the intersection. The boy stopped at the zebra crossing, his gaze aimlessly sweeping over the pedestrians standing under umbrellas on the other side. He recalled the notebook he had found in the girl's room the night before.

Tirelessly, he led Mochizuki Haruka through every corner of the bedroom, and the obedient little pony, aside from offering perfunctory complaints, always cooperated with his whipping.

Only when the two people stood at the head of the bed did the girl regain some of her senses and move the two notebooks that were placed on the bedside table.

That's how Jun Matsueda discovered the "Matsueda Strategy Manual".

If it were him in the past, he might have only felt discomfort and disgust, but now all that remains in his heart is a complex and overflowing warmth.

"757. Matsueda Jun dislikes Mochizuki Haruka."

The last entry in the notebook flashed before his eyes, and Jun Matsue stepped forward, crossing the road with the crowd.

The boy clearly remembered that there were several oval-shaped wrinkles on the last page of the record—those were the girl's dried tears.

Therefore, when faced with the unusual relationship proposed by Mochizuki Haruka this time, he couldn't give a reason to refuse.

Besides taking responsibility, it's also because this time he was the one who wasn't firm enough.

However, there is a more direct way to avoid this immoral relationship, Jun Matsue thought, looking at the roof of the school building in the distance.

That was breaking up with Tomatsu Yuka.

What kind of look would Tomatsu give him...? To prepare himself mentally, he began to imagine it.

Disgust? Shock? Despair?

Will she cry like her senior did? Or will she be completely disappointed in him and turn away without a word?

With the school gate in sight, the boy's steps grew heavy.

As he entered the school gate, Jun Matsue raised his umbrella and looked at the window of his classroom on the fourth floor.

Apart from the lit lights and the white ceiling, there was nothing to see.

It's time to get ready to speak.

Chapter 578 Why not me?

Someone opened the fourth-floor window, and the outer edge of the corridor was soaked by the wind and rain.

Jun Matsuoka walked by, his shadow reflected in the puddles, broken by the raindrops that drifted in, creating ripples.

The boy only saw a few figures on the way, it seemed that many people had asked for leave today. Before finally entering the classroom, he looked back at the sky outside the corridor.

The city was soaked through by the wind and rain.