aircannonsinc Chapter 207
Chapter 207
0:00 a.m.
The room was not very dark because the curtains were not drawn, allowing the neon lights of the city outside to shine in.
I usually lie in bed at eleven o'clock, chatter for more than ten minutes, and look at my phone again, and it doesn't take long to fall asleep.
And today it is very late.
No matter how Xu Xian closed his eyes and emptied his brain, no matter how much he calmed down, he couldn't sleep.
I don't know if Xu Mengxian is asleep, anyway, his heart at this time is mixed, and scattered thoughts are wandering in his brain, as if telling him that he must have insomnia tonight.
I really want to put an on-button in my brain, and when I want to go to sleep, I can set the time to wake up, and press the button to fall asleep immediately.
The plan for the future made him feel confused, especially knowing that the Internet industry would have a big change in the near future, and he didn't know how to find the direction.
Even if he can become a teacher with a teaching certificate, he can also find an IT technology company to work as a staff member.
But he is still a little unwilling, after all, self-media video production has been with him for five years.
Having your own fans, and there are quite a few, can make people feel satisfied on a spiritual level.
As soon as he thought that he would not be able to spray with fans and passers-by in the future, and that there was one less channel to show off his married life with Xu Mengxian, he looked like there were 10,000 ants crawling.
In fact, this is not the main reason.
The small problems in his career can only insomnia for ten minutes for him, and it is impossible for him to stay awake all night.
People who have strong obsessions and dissatisfaction will toss and turn when they are about to fall asleep.
What kind of obsessive desire is this?
Of course, Xu Mengxian didn't call him her husband today.
He's
not such a superficial person, he can call his husband whenever he wants, and it doesn't matter if he doesn't even call him.
He wanted something more important.
Xu Xian sat up from the bed, looking at the glowing neon lights outside the window, and his restless heart could not be calm.
Why do you have to do that kind of thing now?
I just got my marriage certificate today, but my thoughts suddenly came to the last step, and I can't wait, like a beast that has not seen food for hundreds of years.
I've endured it for so long.
Even if you can't bear it, if you put your thoughts into action, this girl will probably resist, and then she will probably become afraid of him, and it is estimated that she will run away from home soon.
Xu Mengxian, what is your heart like at
this time? Can you accept the kind of thoughts I have about you at this time?
Before, I have obviously wanted to pass a lot of truths, loving someone is not to love for the sake of getting the other person's body, nor to love for the sake of getting the other person's heart.
If he does a good job and makes the other party happy and warm, then the other party will naturally love him and accept his ideas.
But this kind of thought, Xu Mengxian, will you accept
it? I, can I let you do that kind of dedication?
We are obviously already married...
In the dimly lit room, Xu Xian felt frustrated and depressed for some reason, and he was not very confident in himself.
Listening to the sound of the other party's even breathing, his own breathing became heavy, and all his thoughts wandered between impulse and hesitation, unable to calm down, but he did not dare to try.
Where did his
self-confidence go? Does this kind of thing need self-confidence?
No matter how confident he is, he has to respect the other party.
Staring out the window at the tall buildings, countless thoughts were already in my mind in a matter of minutes.
"I... I don't want to stand on the moral high ground and fall in love with you, I'm also a man, and I have my own desires..."
He muttered to himself, the voice that only he could hear, but he wanted to say it to the other party.
"Xu Mengxian, do you know, I'm so miserable..."
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In the end, Xu Xian still lay down again.
Countless times of inner struggle and apprehension, I still choose to wait, although I don't know how to wait, or how to find a natural starting point.
Sex and love don't just wait.
This requires the consent of the other party.
But how is he going to ask
, 'Baby, I want
you?' 'Can you give it to me, wife?'
That's probably just going to be a punch in response.
This is really something that he deeply feels untouchable, and he doesn't even know how to open his mouth.
Xu Mengxian, do you know what kind of person I am?
You should know, because you are another me.
Can you feel my current wandering?
He turned over and faced the girl's back, and the faint aroma wafted through the tip of his nose, and his heart was even more uncomfortable.
"You are moving around, and you still
don't let me sleep?" Xu Mengxian, who thought she was already asleep, suddenly opened her mouth to complain, and in the darkness, she turned around and glared at him fiercely: "I don't sleep in the middle of the night, what about estrus here?"
Xu Xian was frightened, and then immediately forced to calm down and quibble: "It's a little hot tonight, I can't sleep." "
It's April 1st, and it's normal for the weather to change from cold and damp to hot, and many people can't sleep.
The excuse is very well founded.
The other party felt as if this was the case, so he sat up and got out of bed and walked to a place in the dark: "Then let's turn on a fan, I'm also quite hot, and I don't sleep very comfortably." His
desire just now did not dissipate from beginning to end, so he made a suggestion: "Won't it be cool if you take off your pajamas, just like me, sleep in your underwear."
Xu Mengxian thought she knew what his intentions were, and most likely she just wanted to take advantage of her when she was asleep.
"Haha, I'm wearing pajamas and won't let you get away with it.
She snorted and turned on the fan, and then carefully climbed back into bed in a hazy way.
"Xu Mengxian..." Xu
Xian's tone softened a lot, and he no longer had that feeling as plain as water, as if he had something to say.
"Huh?"
Xu Xian swallowed his saliva and didn't speak again: "..."She
blinked her eyes and asked, "What's wrong?" Why
does this man seem to be evil tonight, even if he doesn't sleep in the middle of the night, he still behaves so strangely.
That's right, I just got my marriage certificate today.
No matter what kind of madness he had, it was normal.
Xu Xian stared into the other party's eyes, and the other party was also on the same plane as him, waiting for his response.
But only his breathing rate was disordered.
The girl's eyes were a little bright in the darkness against the neon lights outside the window, making the pupils shine like the colors of everything in the world, even if she knew that these were all illusions.
"We are getting married today. "
And then
?" Xu Xian wanted to make sense, so he first went around in circles: "I don't want to live with you in the way of a monk, and I don't want to be a saint, do you understand
?" Xu Mengxian nodded thoughtfully, as if she had guessed what the other party meant, but still asked: "Understood, so?"
"I want to do some..."
Although he couldn't see each other's eyes clearly, Xu Xian still looked away unnaturally: "Some things to do after getting married." "